i have a lot of thought going through my mind everyday, and it's just that i don't feel comfortable blogging about it. heck i don't even talk about it to my friends most of the time. that explains why i have not been blogging for so long. or maybe i just suck at putting thoughts into words.

i have been very moody for the past 2 weeks. i can't seem to find the reason. perhaps it's something someone said to me. that person made me realize that i've been making a lot of stupid choices in my life. and being me, i stand by my decision and suffered in the end. oh well, this way, i have no one else to blame except for myself.

i guess most people know that i totally despise kiasu people. i just can't stand talking to them or being near them. they won't admit their mistake and would just beat around the bush to win. and then they go on and on telling people how they won and take pride in it. speaking of which, some people just love to take all the credit and get all the attention.

and i just hate people who contradicts their words with actions. i mean, it's like you are having multiple personalities. i admit that i've done that before, but i have since tried hard not to. maybe having friends like this will make you realize some of your own mistakes and correct it. still, i would intentionally avoid a person when i can't stand them. or else i would have exploded.

it's just so hard not being able to show your true emotions.