i wonder why have been having weirder and weirder dreams. or should i call it nightmares? everytime it occurs, the feeling is so damn real! makes me think it's the reality and not dreams.

anyway, i can't really remember the details everytime. just a rough idea. last night's dream was about me being accused of being a murderer. the killing was actually done by another person, and i was there at the wrong time. i remember that it was a girl who died. a large crowd of people saw me there, and i was proclaimed guilty without trial. the worst thing is, no one believed me, even my close and best friends. i can't remember seeing any faces at all. either they are hidden from my view, or i've seen some but i can't remember. and then there was a few times where a bunch of people grabbed me and called me a killer. they even tried to hit me a few times! the last part of the dream was me sitting alone in some kind of room with some people which i think was police officers.

at that time, i was so down that i was speechless. it was such a terrible feeling!!! even my best friends don't believe me. it was...unimagineable.

on a side note, my mom has become so high tech. she got herself a nokia 6260 and now she's change it to nokia 7610. and she even got herself a wireless bluetooth headset! the best part is, she got me one too! that's so cool!

i figured my blog contains mostly my whining and complaints. who cares anyway. i'm not hiding my displeasure here when i'm already keeping it silent in front of so many other people. it's just that i felt that i don't have to tell each and everyone who i'm having issues with. notice that i seldom mention names when i complained.

ok now for another complaint.

don't you just hate it when people use the word "sorry" without any weight? i mean, they said it so easily out of their mouth just to wipe of any feeling of guilt off their mind. they think a simply sorry can settle everything. worst still, there are people who kept repeating the same mistake, either on purpose or not, i don't know. i personally know a few people like that, and it gets on my nerves all the time. so the best solution for me is to avoid that person. saves me from getting angry all the time. i'd rather spend time wasting my life away.

edit: just as i finished posting this entry, i came across this website from jeffooi.com. the website contains photos of americans saying sorry to the rest of the world in response to bush's presidential election victory. go to www.sorryeverybody.com.

perhaps it's the university i'm in. i just realize that i've been surrounded by so many young adults who still act like kindergarten kids. i find it hard to understand them, let alone mix around with them. these people think that whenever there's a problem, it's not their fault. every single thing is anyone's fault but theirs. and the best thing they do is to talk about how bad a person is to them, without looking at themselves in the mirror.

i can't stand people who don't know how to admit their own mistakes. when the hell are they going to learn if not now? they think the world is only about them. and when you tell them off, they refuse to talk to you any further. looks like kindergarten kids to me.