went to watch the eye 2 today when i was supposed to be studying for my finals! anyway, it was a so-so show, managed to shock me with one scene. i still prefer the first one starring lee sin jie. not really a fan of shu qi.

it was the first general election where i was eligible to vote. images of people queueing outside classrooms under the hot sun, waiting for their turn to mark a cross on their ballot papers and choose their future representatives, played through my mind over and over again. since this is my first time voting, i have no idea what the procedures are and how long do i have to queue before it's my turn. i decided to go to the voting centre with my sis around noon because i was thinking that people might be having lunch during that time and the wait would be short. futhermore, i want to be home by 3pm to be able to watch the formula 1 race live on tv. it was somewhat a right decision because the whole process took me about 10 minutes. a friend told me later that the line was long in the morning. i was kind of excited being a first time voter, but it died out very soon. anyway, it's nice to see so many people coming out to exercise their rights. made me feel like an adult, although i'm trying to deny it. *sniggers*

i've been having weird dreams these past few days and it's ok if they are sweet but it turned out to be nightmares! i got it even when i'm napping in the afternoon. they were so real that when i woke up i still have that sort of bad mood carried over from dream to reality. maybe because there were many things going through my mind now. i was (and still am) full of rage that whatever that comes out of my mouth would be...err...not so pleasant.

i'm like a ticking bomb and i really don't know when i'll explode...

i have the tendency to hate myself after someone points out my mistakes, instead of hating that particular person. yet i'm a stubborn person when i'm quite sure i did nothing wrong. i can't please everyone and i'm getting really tired when people started telling me what to do or what not to do or how to do it so as to not piss people off. i have my own life damn it and if you guys are going to dictate what i can do or cannot do then please stay away from me.

so the emina cosplay competition finally came and went. it was way better than the first cosplay event (which in my opinion was really a rush job, no offence, but it was that bad). there's still a lot of improvements to be made, if there will be another one in the future. this time however, there were more audiences but not much could be said about the people who competed in the cosplay competition. maybe mmu students are too shy, or maybe they are not exposed to cosplay yet. and the crowd was so DEAD. i don't deny that there wasn't much interesting things to watch during the event but when i, as a mc tried to interact with the audiences, i was given cold shoulders. i mean...come on, even a good mc won't be able to make the event an interesting one if the crowd is mute!

speaking on mc-ing, yup, yours truly was the mc along with alisa. it was my first time being a mc since studying at mmu. i've tried mc-ing a couple of times during secondary school, but still i'm afraid i won't be able to perform well. some of my friends who attended the event said my voice was not strong enough. i don't think i performed well during the event either. nevertheless, alisa was a great partner! oh yeah, both of us got into the cosplay spirit as well! she dressed up as utena from the anime revolutionary girl utena while i cosplayed as ebisu sensei from the anime naruto. some said i looked weird in that costume, while some said i was exactly like that character. i only decided to cosplay the night before the actual event and was quite satisfied with the result. felt like a superstar when there were so many people asking to take pictures of/with me. those camera flashes.... *grins*

a tiring but quite enjoyable day...

been quite long since i last posted huh?

what a hectic month after the chinese new year holidays! i was bombarded with unpleasant news, tons of midterm exams (which i sucked big time) and a hell lot of misundertandings! i was almost on the verge of breaking down completely before some events managed to pull me back together. seriously i'm getting very tired and freaking exhausted after all these. this is my worst trimester ever since starting my degree program at mmu. it got to a point where i refused to study for my tests which lead me to fail most of my midterm papers.

after all these happenings, i'm beginning to doubt whether i will enjoy myself on my trip to redang this coming april...

on the other hand, there are a few people who has helped me to build my confidence back, albeit little by little. they pestered me to study with them in the library, which is so unlike me. i never liked going to library to study because i'm sure i will be distracted by people walking around. i have a very strong sense of curiousity, that's why. some people are actually surprised to see me in the library with books/notes on my table. haha...