MERRY CHRISTMAS!

this year's christmas can be considered the best in my life so far, in terms of the number of presents i get. got prezzies from gek suan, huwi yin, eileen, ee lin, chin chin and another one from jun kee which i haven't collected. didn't really have any celebration on the day itself, just a simple celebration during the eve. went to affryll's 21st birthday party and met a lot of mmu students which i know by face but not in person. too bad most of our secondary classmates can't make it to the party. i would love to see how they're doing now. some of them will be getting their first paycheque soon! how time flies.

after that i went to a small gathering at kea loon's rented house with kea loon, zhenjian, wee how, joe seng, hui yen, liyen, chee hui, ching yin, chin chin and lay wei. before this we had a small agreement whereby we would exchange presents with a certain price range with a certain person. a person would draw a name from a small ballot to determine who he/she has to buy a present for. in the end it was determined like this :-

chee hui bought for kea loon and vice versa
ching yin bought for zhenjian and vice versa
wee how bought for chin chin
chin chin bought for me
i bought for lay wei
lay wei bought for wee how
hui yen bought for liyen
liyen bought for joe seng
joe seng bought for hui yen

*zhenjian bought separately for siew eng, who joined us later.


after opening our presents, we took photos and also a video. i was the one who wanted to take a video after looking at wiyang's chinese new year reunion dinner video taken at germany. somehow i felt that it does have a warm and nostalgic feeling when viewed. but the video doesn't turn out like what i wanted it to be because everyone knows about the shooting and acted unnaturally. i wanted to shoot it while they were opening their presents but they were already done with it before i could start! oh well, better luck (and better video) next time!

our celebration (sort of) ended with a yamcha session at a nearby mamak shop. the initial plan was to continue chatting/playing games until the sun comes out but many of us were feeling tired already (we still had classes earlier that day) so everyone headed home and had a good night sleep...


p/s: i think i spent quite a lot for this year's christmas. but i think it was worth it. have to control next year...

i had a hunch that 'someone' would contact me these few days and i was right. after a few months that 'someone' messaged me thru MSN just a few minutes ago...

before that, i received an unexpected call from hui fung as well. hmm...weird.

anyway, christmas is coming..so enjoy~!

been going up and down to auyin hill resort where nanyang student club had a camp there for the past 4 days. i used to join this kind of camp, as a committee or participant but stopped since 3 years ago. felt kinda nostalgic when i was there but the main reason i went is because of mee nyuk. she is a friend from seremban which i seldom get to see. she a nice person and whenever i see her and talk to her i get very happy. actually anyone would get happy when seeing her around because she is such a fun person to be with. too bad i couldn't stay for long because i was having a bad flu and had to rest at home...

recently i came to know that some people treat me differently for two main reasons.

the first is my exam results. for a long time i've always believed that good result is not THAT important. well, it's important in a sense that employers are more likely to look at those with better results. but nowadays many people who graduated from university with a degree doesn't get a job which is related with their majors. i might be wrong but i've heard a lot of cases where degree holders are working as salesman. some even sell credit card (getting people to sign up for a credit card that is) for a living. another point is, so what if a person is a genius but his social skills are ZERO? can he/she survive in the job market?

my principle is that as long as i enjoy studying, and in the process hanging out with friends from different backgrounds then i'm satisfied. but then of course i have to pass all my papers or else the tuition fees would go to waste. we never stop learning until we die, but we can only study in a institution until a certain time. so why not enjoy university life while we still can?

some people don't share my point of view and i don't blame them. but i can feel it when they treat me differently just because i'm not really good in my studies. perhaps i didn't put enough effort, but that's just me. why can't they just accept who i am? i know it's for my own good, but when i find the need to change then i will. for one, i don't choose my friends according to their results.

the second reason is my inability to read/write chinese, being a chinese. because i tend to mix a lot with those chinese educated people, sometimes i really do feel left out...

came back from my trip to penang and butterworth with kea loon and i'm feeling great! it was an enjoyable trip and i'm sure i'll be back there whenever i have the time and chance. anyway, heartfelt thanks to zhenjian, wee how, ching yin, lay wei, chin chin and liang liang for their hospitality. i really appreciate it guys! oh yeah, they even introduced us to some of their nice friends as well. the only bad point about the whole trip is the rain...

i went to a'famosa resort's animal park today with huwi yin, eileen, ee lin, ken wei, and lai ching and her sister. it was quite an enjoyable trip, but we should have gone there earlier if we knew they were closing at 5pm. so anyway, we get to see lots of animals and even touch them from a close distance. but then we were greeted with a sight of a somewhat tired looking tiger cub posing for photographs. and then there was a few other shows which featured animals such as elephants, monkeys, orang utans, dogs, birds and a meerkat. if i remembered correctly, the last time i saw an animal show is around 11 years ago. maybe at that time i find it interesting. but today it's a different story. i felt disturbed when i saw the tired looking tiger. i'm very sure that i won't pay to be photographed with the tiger because...it looked cruel to me. even the animal shows (except for the bird show) doesn't look interesting to me anymore.

and then there was the animal safari ride. we got a little surprise halfway thru the ride : lions mating! they were doing it in the middle of the ride's trail but i wasn't able to take a picture because they moved away before i was able to snap a photo. the best thing during the ride was the sight of a baby camel. it looked so cute!

a tiring but quite exciting trip. i'm looking forward to my trip to penang now...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY HUWI YIN!

my cute + mischievous god sister turned XX years old today! although there wasn't much celebration, but i hope she was happy! couldn't help it because most of us were sick so there's wasn't much we can do. but i really regretted for not bringing my camera out and snap a photo of her blowing out the candles on her birthday cake, albeit being a small piece only. anyway, she got a new look to celebrate the event as well and she didn't tell me about it!

at least her birthday managed to lift my mood a little bit after getting pissed off twice yesterday. yeah i know you've been wondering why i'm so pissed these few days. i don't have the answers either. the bad luck streak continues...

i'm so excited today! of what reason i don't know. just have that feeling. and it was fun at work today with simon monkeying around. though all of us kinda miss doh's jokes. anyway, i met an interesting customer today. i didn't get to know his name but he's a nice guy to talk to. he's always cheerful and smiling but from the way he talks i know he's a smart guy. he told me he is a programmer, but he graduated as an engineer. and he is very interested in taking photographs. what we talked were mostly centered on the IT field and the programming world. he said he knows a guy who spent 4 years in mmu to get a degree in IT and the first question that guy ever asked him was "how to convert a bmp file to jpeg?". and he also told me about a guy who graduated from ukm in the same field, who didn't know that a computer needs to have a modem installed to be able to get on the internet! well, i honestly felt he was a nice guy to talk to, and i wished i could see him again...

and i'm finally able to see someone's true face...

still feeling gloomy and pissed this whole day while working. time passes very fast for me because there were many customers. even though i got my salary today, it still doesn't lift my mood a bit. simon did try to cheer me up after he knew what happened. i must admit that i do miss his antics. i enjoyed working whenever he's around. the last few days he wasn't around because he was forced to look after other branches.

a lot of things happened at my workplace today. 2 customers came and complained about our service. almost broke into a big argument, i must say. and then there was a big commotion when a bunch of malay guys (who was supposedly banned from entering the complex, according to a guard) smashed the glass beside the escalator with their helmets. they were caught by plain clothes policemen just after a few minutes. stupid.

all this while i thought she came from a good family, but i was wrong. i didn't know how come i got the urge to ask, but what she told me almost brought me to tears. halfway thru the conversation, i decided to stop asking because even though she doesn't mind, i feel that i couldn't bear to hear it. she told me that her mom practices favouritism towards her kids, and she was the one getting the least love and care. but in the end, all the other children refuses to take care of their mom and left her alone. now she was the one who takes care of her. and what would you feel when your own mom tells you that the food you cook is "like shit" ? she cook for her because she was afraid that she might get hungry and this is the kind of "compliment" she gets? now that she is moving in to stay with her sons at their new house, she doesn't give a damn about her mom anymore. i wonder if this would happen to someone in the future...

on another note, i realised that she never talks about her husband and yet she always talks about her 2 sons. and so i stupidly asked and was told that her husband went overseas to work and abandoned her and her two children. yet she is a successful single parent. she loves her children very much and vice versa. life is so cruel sometimes...

p/s: name was kept secret on purpose.

i am seriously pissed when i wrote this. within one week, the car i was driving was broken in twice. today is the second time (the 1st time was monday). this time the loss was greater though. the thief stole the cd player and my bag which contains my 128mb thumb drive. i even lost the SHE cd which was in the cd player! at that time i felt like injuring the culprit real bad. if i were to catch i won't let him go until i see his blood.

i've been running some kind of bad luck streak these few days. the whole incident ruined my day. i was supposed to post something other than this. what is wrong with those people?

feeling very excited today because i managed to sell quite a number of items. sold 2 digital cameras, one walkman, one cd walkman, one minidisc walkman, two normal cameras and a few other accessories.

other than that, i don't have to pay anything for my lunch because auntie gillian's friends brought some ketupat, fried chicken and some rendang chicken and beef for us to feast on. seems like i get to celebrate hari raya as well!

today is not a good day for me. after work, i proceeded to my car parked at the basement of mahkota parade to go eat dinner with kenny before going back. when i got into my car, i realised that some one managed to get into my car and ransacked it. he got away with some small change which i keep to use on parking metres. *sigh* all the risk and trouble for a few ringgit? give me a break man! and he still have the courtesy to lock my doors after stealing...

when i reach home, my dad told me that my streamyx is down. even the phone line is down. luckily i still have another phone line and i was able to go online on dial-up.

one funny thing happened at my workplace these two days though. some of the customers mistakenly thought i am the boss' son. reason : all the other workers are wearing uniforms where as i'm not. hehe...i feel funny when they tried to ask me to give a discount...

today i started working part time again. and i managed to sell a digital camera! previously i didn't try to sell any because i didn't really know how to talk and coax the customer to buy. and now i'll have some extra money to buy new year clothes...hehe..

i was driving to campus yesterday for my last exam paper when i noticed that the hitz.fm Ford Escape Cruisers stopped in front of the mmu main entrance again to give out freebies. so i hurriedly parked my car and rushed over to them with the hope of getting some stuff. they have this contest called ambi pur : guess the scent where they will select 5 person to join and the winner will get a RM100 ambi pur hamper. the contest is a simple one. the person will be blindfolded and he/she has to guess as many scents as possible in 30 seconds. the winner even stand a chance to win a trip to tanjung jara resort, terengganu worth RM2000! they only need 5 contestants, so one of the crew said that the first 5 persons who can show her car keys will join the contest. i happened to be the 5th person and boy was i excited. but then, out of nowhere, a rogue 6th person enters the fray and someone needs to pull out. because i can't afford to wait (my exam was starting soon) and nobody seems to want to voluntarily pull out, i decided to let it a go. but i so wanted to get that hamper! i was telling it to everybody because i was the legal contestant! *sigh*

fast forward to today, i woke up at 2 something pm (i slept at 6am) and went to get a haircut after my lunch. after the haircut, i got into the car and heard on the radio that the cruisers are still in melaka and they stopped at bukit baru. without much thinking i decided to drive there to try and get something. i was hoping that they will recognize me as the guy who had to pull out yesterday because of exams and let me join the contest. but i was disappointed upon reaching because the contest is already under way. since i'm there anyway i don't want to go home empty handed. at least win something major like a cd or t-shirt la..so happens they have blue's latest album and those who want it need to sing at least a paragraph of any of blue's songs. 2 girls went for it, and yours truly decided to give it a shot as well at the 11th hour. i sang the chorus of the song you make me wanna because that's the only song i can remember. in the end, the crew asked the crowd to vote for the winner. i think you are smart enough to guess who got the cd, else i wouldn't post this here right? *grins*

i login to blogger and something attracted my attention. it was this piece of news. hmm..makes me wonder whether i have any offending stuff in my blog that i don't want people to know of.

anyway, my discrete structures exam wasn't so hard as i expected it to be (yay!) but i hope i get better marks. yesterday, after spending the whole day at the campus' library, i went home to relax for a while before getting some sleep. had a crazy chat with wiyang and edmund which managed to ease my mind a little bit. it's amazing what sort of jokes you can come up with when you are under pressure. so wiyang got a heavy teasing from the both of us, but the only thing we miss is his face expression. if only we are able to conduct video conferencing. but then again, my family would hear everything. and also, me and edmund was not able to show our coherency. hmm...still prefers yam cha. hehe...ahh..the good old days...

wiyang screwed me for spoiling his enthusiasm to watch matrix : revolutions. ok, i admit. it's my fault. i just couldn't help it. but just so you know, that was my initial reaction. after some reading and some deep thinking, i realise there were many subtle explanations for the ending. it was an open ended ending after all.

sometimes i felt that having too many friends and aquaintances has its disadvantages. at times, i really don't know how to act when i'm out with a group of friends and i keep bumping into other friends. you know, when you see other friends of course you will talk to them a bit. this might annoy if it happens too often. another problem is, sometimes 2 or 3 group of friends ask me out at the same time or ask me to watch the same movie. i'm very bad at tackling these kind of situations. i just don't have the heart to reject but yet i am unable to attend to them all. i might even unknowingly hurt their feelings by rejecting. worst still, they might not even want to ask me the next time they go out because they assume that i don't have time for them. perhaps this is why some of my friends refused to invite me out when i so wanted to meet them and so free. it hurts when i find out later that they were having a good time whereas i am staying at home. oh well, guess i'll just have to live with it.

yesterday was wee how's birthday and we went to kfc at jusco to celebrate. after that, we went to yamcha at cahaya dinar. i was touched by siew eng's story about her family. she came from a broken family...sort of. her mother died when she was just 10 years old and her father just left her and her siblings to take care of themselves. she told us that whenever she fights with her siblings, it was almost always life threatening. she told us that she was physically hurt a few times, and she even tried committing suicide. yet, she managed to study quite well and made it into university. now that she's older, she began to appreciate the people beside her. her story undoubtly made us realise that we are so lucky compared to many other people. it's just that we didn't know. i felt a little bit guilty for having such a bad first impression of her. the yamcha continued until 3am. and i reached home at 5.30am because i need to discuss with kea loon, wee how and zhenjian about our timetable for the next trimester and also our programming assignment which is due on 11/11/2003...

and to answer wiyang's question at his blog :

i don't have time to meet edmund because i'm busy at that time. i have time to know the girls because i'm busy spending time with them to do our recycling exhibition. furthermore, we attend the same class sometimes and it's just natural that we meet more often in campus... so, don't lah jealous, ok? i'll introduce them to you if i have the chance...hehe...

i watched matrix : revolutions on its simultaneous world wide zero hour premiere and it was...ok. not really that great but ok. the ending doesn't live up to my expectations but the action scenes were breathless. there was so much going on on screen that i'm glued to my seat. anyway, i still have that bad taste in my mouth until now. i don't know how to describe it but...perhaps they shouldn't make the sequels at all.

i went to the movie with kea loon, lay wei, chin chin and ching yin (i think i've been spending quite some time with them recently). after the movie we decided to yam cha. at first we were going to lepak at daud but in the end i brought them to somewhere near my house. and since it's already so near my house they pestered me to show them the location. they managed to have a glimpse at my brothers as well. so there we were, chatting at the mamak place until i realised it's already 3am. it seems that everytime we go yam cha together, we are sure going to end up going back at wee hours of the morning. but then i suddenly thought of continuing our chat until around 6am and eat dim sum as our breakfast. lay wei agreed strongly and so it was decided. 6 am came and we had our light dim sum because everyone was kind of full and lay wei wasn't feeling well. i reached home at 7.30am (been out for 12 hours!) and fell asleep around 8am....

i think i did ok in my discrete structures test yesterday. at least better than the 2 tests earlier. thanks to kea loon and siew eng for being a good tutor! i'm sure i won't be able to do the test if it's not because of them. i missed the whole week's lecture and tutorial on this subject because of sickness, and the test was mostly on the chapter i missed.

after the test a whole lot of us went to eat and drink. guys only drank because we ate our dinner already. those who went were me, kea loon, wee how, zhen jian, lay wei, ching yin, chin chin, hui yen, liyen (joined us later), siew eng and sen hui. we talked and teased a lot until the shop closes. after that everyone was still not in the mood to go back and so we sit by the roadside and continue talking. later we decided to go for a second round of drinking (not liquor!). we continue to talk and also discussed about our plan to visit penang and butterworth during the last week of the trimester break. in the end we decided to call it a day after 3am. and i was supposed to go to campus at 8am!

this morning i did manage to wake up at 7 something, but i reached campus at around 8.30am for the MIVEC opening ceremony. the function ends at around 11.30am and i decided to skip all my classes today and have some beauty sleep...

the past 5 days is like hell for me. it all started on monday. i woke up with a runny nose. normal, i thought, because i have a sensitive nose. then it developed into flu. later that day, i realise that i start to cough a lot. so basically, i was sneezing and coughing the whole day. i wasn't even able to concentrate on anything. luckily it was the first day of ramadan and it was a holiday so i had no class that day.

tuesday. i decided to skip all my class today because i need to finish my computer programming assignment by 5pm and hand it up. i'm still coughing and sneezing so i couldn't concentrate on my work. me and my partner didn't manage to fulfill the requirements of the assignment because it's so hard to code. furthermore, we still haven't eaten since monday night's supper! so we decided to hand up what we had done around 4pm and headed for lunch. i couldn't finish my food because gastric striked...

wednesday. i skipped my morning class because i wasn't feeling well when i woke up. still coughing, still sneezing and later that day, i had fever. and because i starved myself for far too long on tuesday, my gastric pain just wouldn't go away. i skipped another evening class because i couldn't stand it anymore. went back straight and slept. so now i cough, i have flu, i have gastric pain and i have fever.

thursday. skipped all my class. not feeling any better.

friday. went to consult a stomach specialist which happens to be my relative. took a test to determine whether i have the helicobacter pylori (h. pylori) bacteria. result : negative. cost of everything : RM211. and that's discounted! all that for a negative result. sigh...

saturday. no more fever, no more flu, still a bit of gastric pain. new addition : frequent headache. went to mahkota parade today to get some photos developed for my friend. and then i went to buy tickets for the global simultaneous premiere of matrix revolutions on november 5th. bought david tao's CD and some comics too. went yam cha at night with my form 6 classmates. so glad to see and talk to them again. suddenly realised that some of them are graduating soon and we might not have the chance to sit down in one big group like this and talk again. time sure flies...

my opinion on a certain race is getting lower and lower by the day...

hmm..i'm wondering if there is such thing as being more than a best friend, but not a steady boyfriend/girlfriend...

ganesh invited me to have lunch at his house for the deepavali celebration yesterday and i so wanted to go but i couldn't make it because i had to work. i've been celebrating deepavali with him along with cheng kiat, affryll and sometimes joon liang and edmund for the past 3 years and i really wanted to meet them because it's been so long since we last chatted. i hope they will come out tonight to yam cha...

besides that, 2 of my friends was having some relationship problems and they wanted me to listen to them. again, i wasn't able to attend to them because i was preoccupied. but i did call them back to make sure they are ok. i just wished there's more than 24 hours in a day. so little time yet so many things happening...

a little worried about huwi yin's headache...

wiyang seems to be pissed with my last post. but then again, it was funny lar...i remembered it too vividly. no hard feelings yeah?

i woke up today with a stiff neck! it was painful and i can't even turn my head to the left. but i felt funny and laughed at myself for that. maybe because it was my first time. heck i would even laugh at my friends if they can't turn their heads left also. it was torture! especially when i was driving and i need to look to my left. i had to turn my whole body to be able to look to the left because the pain was unbearable... argh!

eelin and eileen told me that i was supposed to hang my pillow under the morning sun and the whack my neck with it. even my mum asked me to do that. i never believed in superstitious stuff so i didn't really feel like trying. lay wei suggested using ameltz yokoyoko but i'm too lazy to buy it. save money lah...so in the end i left it like it is and looked right most of the time....

thank goodness the tutor decided to postpone the due date to pass up the computer programming assignment. if not, i'll be half dead now. so that means that i can have a few days to rest and catch up with my friends which i temporarily ignored. not that i did it on purpose but i had too much things to do that i couldn't find time to meet them. i knew edmund is having his one month holiday now and he was back in malacca for the past 2 weeks or so. it's been long since i last met him to talk and if he didn't come to my house to register his course online, i might not even have the chance to meet him.

recently i got to know a lot of penang people. i just realised two days ago that out of 23 person in my exhibition group, 7 of them are penangites! hmm...

wiyang recently posted about a company's representative calling his rented house to speak to mr. tan about some practical training opportunity. problem is, there are 3 mr. tan's (including himself) in his house which applied for practical training! anyway, he reminded me that he did the same thing before. the story goes like this. there's this classmate of ours whose name is bong yi chung. we are used to calling him simply as bong or bong chai or ah bong because he is the only one with that surname in our class. one day, wiyang called his house to look for him. i was beside him along with sin yi when he called. bong answered the phone and wiyang promptly asked to speak to bong. bong thought someone wanted to speak to his dad instead and proceeded to call his dad. at the same time, i sensed something was amiss and told wiyang that there are a lot of bongs in the house. wiyang realised his mistake but it was too late. we were already laughing our pants off when wiyang tried to save the situation by talking to thin air. in the end he decided to hang up and call again...

ahh..finally found some time to blog again. i still have some assignments to worry about but i'll just put that off for a moment. i'm very tired now but very excited and happy! all thanks to my malaysian studies group project (exhibition on glass recycling). during the course of doing the project, i get to know 17 new friends! and most of them are girls because there's only a small number of us guys. i daresay that compared to other groups, we are the noisiest and the most bonded group. and our exhibition was not bad either. although we have a test at night most of us still came to the booth and look after it. after the exhibition, we took a lot of photos together! and after the test at night, we continued our bonding by going yam-cha. we made a lot of noise there until other customers also looked at us one kind. most of us laughed until our jaws was sore but everyone enjoyed themselves. i wish we could still come out like this again and hang out together!

i was supposed to blog this yesterday but i've been busy for the past 7 hours trying to partition my new 80 gigabyte hard drive and to clone my operating system. been trying so many different configurations but i still can't make it work. will try again later today i guess.

yesterday was my computer programming 2 lab test. i sucked at it. first, i wasted some precious time trying to make the stupid visual c++ program to work and run my code. i'm not familiar with the program though. out of 10 questions, i can only answer 5. the 5 questions that i answered was debugging questions. other questions required us to write a program. and it was an OPEN BOOK test!

another test coming on monday, and i haven't studied for it...sigh...

i've been getting weirder and weirder dreams every night. although i can't remember all of them, i knew they are weird. this morning i woke up with another weird dream. it freaked me out! as usual i'll not post it up here because it's private! maybe because i was stressed. what with the loads of assignments and tests this coming week. i'm still wondering why MMU decides to offer Computer Programming 2 (C++) subject during the short trimester. it's way harder to understand than C, especially with all the Object Oriented Programming. some of my friends even dropped the subject half way thru because they just couldn't cope. and the tutors are inexperienced because they are fresh graduates! damn. there goes my interests for the subject.

heck i can't even find the time to go watch infernal affairs 2 at the cinemas.

3 birthdays in a row! wiyang turned 21 (finally!) on the 8th, chin chin turned 19 on the 9th and ganesh turned 21 also on the 10th. i called them all on their birthdays at around 12am malaysian time and it seems wiyang refused to follow the malaysian time because he can be 20 years old for another 6 hours in germany. come on lah..old means old lah... what difference does 6 hours make? hehe...time sure flies. when i was on the phone with him, we talked about the old days yet again. don't know why, we seem to enjoy walking down memory lane everytime we talk. he told me that i've changed a lot since we form 5. probably true, because i was still so childish back then.

didn't blog for a few days because i was busy doing my computer programming assignment which was due yesterday. slept early in the morning for a few days which caused pimples to break out. not that i bother much because i wasn't in the mood to attract any girls in the mean time. *grins* anyway, i felt a little bit guilty because i think i didn't contribute much to the assignment. we were supposed to write a program but my partner did all the coding himself and i was only doing a little bit of paperwork. i wasn't good in programming as he is and i couldn't understand what he wrote. i felt even more guilty when we were supposed to state what we contributed to the assignment and he actually asked me to state that i did some coding as well because he was afraid that i would get low marks. i wished i did more.

felt happy to meet fong fang because i haven't seen her since she went to utar to study. :)

PART 1
i'm tired of people saying i'm thin because i don't eat. it's not like i want to be thin. i just don't seem to grow fat no matter how much i eat. and being thin is not so enjoyable. i'm having a lot of trouble trying to buy clothes that look nice on me. i can't even wear a long sleeved t-shirt. maybe i got some worms in my stomach. or maybe it's that h.pylori bug. i don't know.


PART 2
i'm tired of people thinking that i'm some kind of genius who can do very well in exam even without studying. everytime i tell someone that i don't know how to do a paper in the exam, they would give me a kind of sarcastic look and say that they don't believe it. sometimes it really frustrates me when i tell someone that i failed my my papers and they just refused to believe until i show them the proof.


PART 3
i'm tired of people misunderstanding that i'm interested in a girl just because i'm close to them or i merely talked to them. i mean, come on! why are there so many narrow minded people around me? i don't deny that i get along with girls more than i can get along with guys, but that doesn't mean that i like to flirt around!

i've been through that situation before. someone i'm close to suddenly became so distant just because some people say things that were unpleasant. even talking to her openly is such a hard thing to do. in the end, it came to a stage where we don't talk to each other anymore. i really wished i could still talk to her but it wasn't to be. that is why i made a point not to spread or start a rumour about these kind of situations. some people might lose a nice friend of the opposite sex...

i was half way through my beauty afternoon nap last tuesday when the phone rang and woke me up. i was cursing silently before i realised it was jun kee (aka rufffey girl to wiyang. explanation on this will be posted later). she was the first person to comfort me after i confronted "someone" and i was really thankful for that although she so happened to call me at that time. anyway, i answered the phone hurriedly (no more cursing, hehe.. actually i appreciate every call from anybody because not many people will ring me up just to chat and that is why i didn't silent my phone even while sleeping) and she asked me whether i wanted any tickets to watch a mini concert by S.H.E. to be held at Pay Fong Middle School, Melaka on wednesday night. straight away i became alert and answered "hell yeah!". well, they are the artistes that i most wanted to meet more than any other! i'm not really that crazy about them but i just wanted to see them in real life. too bad only selina and hebe are coming. i wished ella could come too! anyway, she told me she had extra tickets and i can even bring 2 persons along to accompany me. i'm so thankful to her! she really made my day in more times than once. and i only knew her for barely a year! felt so happy to have her as a friend.

fast forward to wednesday, i can't wait till night comes! i have to endure 5 hours of class today which starts at 9am (supposedly 8am start but i skipped the 1st hour) and ends at 6pm with breaks in between classes. after taking my dinner idrove to pay fong with lay wei, chin chin and ching yin as my escorts. hehe... we reached there about 6.30pm. the concert was supposed to start at 8pm but it was already jam packed with people (ah bengs, ah lians and even aunties!) lining up to get into the hall. it was half full when i got in but in a matter of minutes it was packed to the max. people started pushing and shoving and sweating and the concert began at around 8.10pm. most of them started screaming at the sight of them but some sang along them. they only sang 3 songs and repeated the 1st song for an encore. in between the songs they also played some games with the audience with prizes such as S.H.E. journals, lollypops and a handphone! i brought my digicam there with hopes of taking some nice pictures up close, but i didn't manage to take even a near perfect still photo because the lighting caused the pictures to be overexposed or it will be blurred from shaking (no thanks to all the pushing and shoving!). in the end i decided to take video instead and it came out ok although a bit far.

after the singing, those with original cds or cassettes can line up to get on stage to get a special S.H.E. ink-stamp on their cd cases or cassette inlays. i haven't bought their cd yet so i didn't bother to stay at first. same goes for my 3 escorts. but then after taking a leak we suddenly felt the urge to join the crowd as well and proceeded to buy the cd and queing up to get the ink-stamp. finally got on the stage after a second round of pushing and shoving and i was looking at selina, hoping she would lookup, but she was too busy stamping. *sigh* when i wanted to look at hebe, the security guys already shoved me off the stage. there goes my chance to oogle at my favourite S.H.E. member. damn! by the way, a security personel gave ching yin his identification tag (with a picture of S.H.E.) as a souvenir. *envy* went eating after that and then met up with eileen, eelin and lai ching for a short yam-cha session. felt a bit guilty because i promised i would help them to decorate the tables for anime exhibition tomorrow. sorry ya...

slept late again last night because i was watching the live telecast of the formula 1 race. then woke up in time to attend my class but i was just too lazy to get off my bed. futhermore it's raining outside so i decided to attend my class an hour late. i was lucky to attend that class because the lecturer suspected that a lot of students will skip class and ask their friends to sign the attendance and she called out random names from the attendance list. those who signed but was not there when their names were called would have another 2 hours of absence added to them. *relieved*

felt quite happy today because i noticed someone that i just got close to recently is worthy of being called a friend. he was there to lend a helping hand even though i didn't ask for it. been making a lot of wrong choices all my life and it makes it hard for me to trust a person at times.

anyway, i've been getting a lot of funny dreams, even while taking an afternoon nap! had one today before i was woken up by a phone call from my mum. darn. it was a nice dream though, the kind of dream which i wished would become a reality! if only i can watch it till the end. hehe..no, i'm not going to mention it here so dream on! (pun intended). don't know whether i can continue dreaming from where i left off when i sleep tonight. *crosses fingers*

i was waiting for chee ying's call yesterday because she and ai luang were coming down from cyberjaya to hang out in melaka. they called me around 8pm and say they were travelling down and they haven't taken dinner. so i thought of having dinner with them because i have no time to hang out with them on saturday as i was going to mid valley megamall, kuala lumpur for the axn anime fest thingie. anyway i was waiting until i can't wait anymore and went for dinner alone. met up with them after watching survivor 7 and went for a drink until around 2am. slept at 6am because i wanted to finish harry potter and the order of the phoenix. and i was supposed to wake up at 8am! by the way, i still prefer harry potter and the goblet of fire as my favourite in the whole series because i think the 5th book was to draggy.

so after 2 hours of "temporary blinding", woke up and was on my way to KL in no time. talked to gek suan along the way because she was feeling down while stopping once in a while to tease eileen and ee lin (confused? sometimes i do too..but only when speaking their names). reach there around 11 something and the crowd was already so big even before the gates to the event were opened. so me and my god sisters huwi yin and gek suan plus diana went for lunch first. then we met up with hong aun and kenny who were taking part in the cosplay competition. i became their assistant (more like clothes hanger) while they dress up in their costume. the end result was kinda nice and they do attract a lot of attention. makes me feel like cosplaying too at that time. after watching them perform, i had a good feeling that they are going to win something. sure enough, kenny came out tops and hong aun 3rd. now for some benefit of being a clothes hanger... *greedy thought*

anyway, i did sort of win something in the event. it was a giant poster of the online game ragnarok online. got it by going up the stage (holding 2 digicams, wearing 2 watches and a sling bag on my shoulders) and answering a simple question. i don't really fancy that poster but somehow many people grew green with envy when they saw me having that poster. gave me a reason to be proud of myself. hehe...

on another note, i saw someone (2 people actually) which i don't really fancy seeing at that time. ironically, i was telling gek suan in the bus that i had thought that i might saw them there. it's not the first time in recent months that what i say became reality. scary! here are few instances :-

case 1 : huwi yin was gloating on finishing her exams before me when the exam timetable was drafted. i told her that maybe she will finish later than me when the final timetable was out. it happened, but later this was superceded by the next thing i said and in the end i finished my exams a mere few hours after her...

case 2 : many people received tips for their database systems final exams from a certain lecturer, and the question and answers from the tips were similar to the final exam paper. as a result many people did well while those who didn't get the tips did not do so well. i didn't care much about it. and then i saw thye shin while shopping at tesco and i was telling him that maybe somebody would complain and we would have to re-sit that paper. it happened.

case 3 : i insisted on lending my jacket to huwi yin for her missionary camp but she refused. i told her she might get sick from the cold of the night. it happened AGAIN.

case 4 : perhaps kenny and hong aun won because eileen asked me to say that they will win...


edited // forgot to mention that the mc for the anime fest was damn cool. he managed to hype up the crowd with his spontaneous jokes and acted together with the cosplayers. even managed to keep his cool when a rude cosplayer smack him behind the neck. respect!

perhaps my biggest weakness is that i sometime annoy (or even hurt) people with what i say without me realising. and most of the time i don't mean to hurt or annoy. it's just that i don't know that it was misinterpreted by the listener. i'm trying to be more careful nowadays but i couldn't help it at times. as a result, people tend to avoid me when i made a single mistake. and maybe because of this reason, i am always reluctant to say what's on my mind.

i finally understand why my blog looks weird in certain computers. i was having my tutorials for computer programming II when i discreetly visit my blog page. and it appeared oddly on that particular computer. then i realised that the computer i was using at the time was running internet explorer 5. it seems that my blog page only works best when displayed on internet explorer 6 or mozilla.

sad to say that most of my classes this trimester is...boring. the lecturers are boring and most of the time i couldn't understand what they were saying. and i have to attend the lectures in a jam packed lecture hall. man..why didn't the hold the lectures in a bigger venue? *grunts*

wanted to blog yesterday after coming back from work but i was too tired. didn't even stay up to watch manchester united vs arsenal. and i've forgotten what i wanted to post here last night.

anyway, i slept at around 11 something and woke up this morning with yet another memory of a bad dream. new trimester starts today, and what a way to begin it being late to class! quite happy to see some faces, not so happy to see some other faces. oh well, guess i'll have to live with that. oh, and i was extremely happy to be in the same assignment group with a group of girls that i'm really interested to know in person. hehehe...

yeah, i know my blah-board sucks. i like huwi yin's one though. it's translucent and it's in blue! the only thing missing is a scroll bar. no, i don't think i'll incorporate it into my blog. at least not yet. i might find a better one which fits into my sidebar. so i'll just stick to my current one for a while.

i got my salary for my part time work yesterday, and i was excited! it's not my first salary though. i've worked in genting highlands casino before and the salary was way higher than this time. that was 3 years ago. the feeling of getting my hard earned money was almost forgotten, but it's back now. it was a small amount, but i'm happy!

i can still remember the first time i use my salary to treat my friends. i treated wiyang, edmund, sin yi, chen min and jit king mcdonalds because they never stop talking about its hello kitty! soft toy promotion at that time. after that it was joon liang, ganesh, cheng kiat and affryll's turn at kfc mahkota parade. it was a different feeling when you are using your earned money to treat your friends. there was a sense of satisfaction. and i'm still waiting for these guys to do the same to me. (hint! hint!) this time, i've already promised to treat some people...and i'm not mentioning it here..hehe.

i've just started with harry potter and the order of the phoenix yesterday night after i got it from huwi yin. i couldn't stop reading after i start because i was so anxious to know what happens next. as a result, i slept at 5am in the morning...

i was channel surfing on tv after coming home from my lunch with huwi yin when i stumbled upon the repeat broadcast of an episode of Edisi Siasat on ntv7. i've been paying attention for some other juicy story after the same program aired an report on Universiti Malaya students making out under the stairs (which i missed!). this time, they aired a report on tranvestites (aka pondan/bapuk/mak nyah) prostitution in my hometown! thus the famous place for tranvestites in malacca is revealed to the whole of malaysian tv viewers which was previously only well known among most malaccans. not really something to be proud of but i've been showing the place to my non-malaccans friends when i happened to drive them around that area during their 'business hours'. among the highlights of the report include a raid by the authorities on their premises. some managed to lock themselves in the car and drove off while some tried to hide in toilets. some of them had cuts all over their body in their attempt to escape. the reporter also mentioned that some are caught buck naked. i don't even want to imagine it. it was also reported that some of the tranvestites have well paying day time jobs, most of them in beauty parlours. anyway, although the authorities did manage to nab some, there's nothing much they can do to totally eradicate this menace because there are no specific laws to give a heavier sentence. the most they will get is a fine of RM1000 which they can easily settle. so until then, we malaccans just have to live with it.

today can be considered the last day of holiday for me because i've decided to work part time tomorrow, saturday and sunday. and tomorrow the new season of survivor starts on ntv7!

p/s: huwi yin, hope you had a nice meal before going off to the camp. and make sure you enjoy yourself in the camp while i work...

something is wrong with my 'internal' clock. i never fail to wake up automatically at exactly 11am for the last week. most of the time i would continue to sleep because i don't think i would have much time to sleep when the new trimester starts.

i really hate it everytime i have to check for my examinations result. the exam unit always tell us that result will be out on so-and-so date, but everytime when the date is here, their server will be closed for maintenance, technical problem etc. i mean, i understand that few thousand people will be checking their results online at the same time, but they should've anticipated it. it is WAY better if the server is slow than totally unreachable. i've been trying to retrieve my result since 1pm to 5pm today, and i still couldn't login. finally i gave up and use their sms services instead. ok, why didn't i use the sms service in the first place? simple reason. i've been paying dearly for my tuition fees, and now i had to pay another premium rate for getting my result? 2nd question, why do i want to know my result so quickly? answer : i need to decide whether i can work part time for the rest of my holidays. if i were to fail a paper, i would have to study for that subject and take the supplemetary paper.

so here i am, ranting about the inefficiency of the exam unit after i got my result. i anticipated that i would at least fail one paper, but luckily, i passed all! i don't think my GPA will be good though, considering that i had a lot of 'unhealthy' things going through my mind one week before the finals. *sigh* guess i'll have to work hard in the coming trimesters.

on another note, wiyang's blog has been updated with a new layout and a tag board! and he asked me to tell everyone reading this that he likes my new layout. *grins*

yay! tag-board finally working. although not as nice as the last one (without smilies) but at least it fits into my sidebar nicely. thanks to eileen for lending me a tiny bit of webspace. i've tried searching for free webhosting site which can support CGI in order for the tag board to work but i couldn't find any. hehe..by the way, within minutes of getting the now called blah-board to work, it was bombarded with messages from wiyang and eileen. hehe...i don't mind. at least it is active. not many people know about my blog anyway.

my pet sis huwi yin came back to melaka yesterday, and i had lunch and dinner with her and also jin and eileen. eileen gave me a pair of sunglasses i so badly wanted and i was happy for that! but then again, i'm not wearing spectacles so i need some time to get used to wearing one. even wearing it for a short time makes me feel a bit dizzy. thanks eileen ..for the dinner treat too!

i realised that many simple things reminds me of "someone". a place, an animal, a tv show featuring certain artistes, etc. it happened for a number of times yesterday. now i fully understand what some people are going through. it never occured to me that i would experience it first hand. for so long i've been hearing it from someone else and now it's my turn. ironic, isn't it?

just updated my blog layout. it still needs a little bit of touching up, and i hope i can get that tag-board up again.

wiyang said my blog doesn't look nice...at least he said i should change the colors. well, i'm not in the mood to sit down and work on the layout of my blog, so i'll just procrastinate again. hehe...oh yeah, bon voyage wiyang! have a nice flight back. too bad we didn't spend much time hanging out together. no choice lar. you came back at the time when i'm having my finals. and most of our classmates were not in melaka anyway. see u online!

i've went back to work for the camera shop in mahkota parade (pakard photo) on friday and thursday. the boss doesn't have enough manpower so he summoned me to work for him. he actually asked me on tuesday morning, but i already promised wiyang and joon liang to watch pirates of the carribean that day. back to my work. since i don't know how to sell digicams (i wasn't trained to like the other part timers) my job was to help out wherever i can. but then i got a little bit bored and ask one of the permanent workers to teach me how to use the photo printing machine. and once i got hold of it, i can't stop printing! i like to see other people's photo, especially those from other countries. you can actually see the difference between pictures taken by a malaysian and a foreigner. i don't know how to describe it, but somehow the pictures taken by those foreigners are more natural and they really how to choose a nice angle to take a picture. there's this lady (my guess is she's either from US of A or Australia) who wanted to print photos taken from her vacation at bali and boy, were the pictures nice! she even have underwater shots of marine life! she told us that some of the underwater shots were taken by her. in contrast, malaysian people like to take pictures of people posing. sometimes, i'm guilty of that too!

i've printed some photos for myself discreetly too, since i realised that the annoying boss is having a vacation at langkawi! no wonder everyone in the shop is so happy and relaxed. too bad the printing machine was a bit spoiled. some of the photos came out pink when it should be white. oh well, it's free so i can't complaint much. *grins* i managed to sneak out some unwanted photos (mistakenly printed) as well. those are pictures of a ...err...beautiful girl! hehe...

oh well, i kinda look forward to work there again. maybe this coming monday. it depends. i enjoyed working there with those people. they are funny and nice people. they don't scold me for making a mistake since they know i'm new. but some customers did say nasty things to me. typical malaysians. i'm really impressed with some australians who are very polite. there's once when every worker in the shop was busy and couldn't attend to a few aussies customers. when we apologised to them, they simply smiled back and said "don't worry, i know you're busy. take your time". malaysians have a lot to learn from them.

my final results are coming out soon, and i think i have to prepare for my supplementary paper soon because i have a strong feeling that i will fail my digital systems.*sigh*

i wanted to blog here after i finish working last sunday but i was too tired to type. another reason is that i suck at telling stories using words. it's so much easier if i say it out rather than typing it out.

anyway, i stopped working as a balloon guy since sunday. i kinda enjoyed working as one though. most of the workers there, be it permanent workers or part-time workers are nice people. and they wanted my job! well, they helped me blow up the balloons and tie it to a stick whenever they're free and i just go out and distibute them. turned into an instant KID MAGNET. well, some teenage girls came to get balloons from me too. not to mention a few middle age woman. hehe...totally enjoyed the attention that i get. by the way, some people even addressed me as "uncle"! come on lar..i don't look THAT old. i learned a little about the business world. and i am able to see certain things from the businessman point of view. for example, i don't really like it when people ask me whether i need help whenever i step into a shop. and now i knew the rationale behind it. it is a very simple way to prevent theft. when a shopkeeper attends to you, it shows that they noticed you and the chances of you stealing will be very low. so now i've experience in 5 different jobs. croupier, waiter, housekeeping, promoter and balloon guy.

the other day the subject of relationship suddenly came up when i was talking to one of my friends who also worked in the same shop except that he is supposed to sell digicams. he had a relationship before and after they broke up the girl still maintained a good relationship with him, as a friend. he helped her do a lot of things. projects, assignments etc. but when the girl got a new boyfriend, she started to treat him badly. he was upset and disappointed nevertheless, and i saw it with my own eyes (the girl also worked together with us) how she disrespected him in front of so many people. i don't get it sometimes. when girls are in a relationship, they always expect their boyfriends to be loyal to them and hope that they treat her nicely. and usually, it was the girls who dump the guys. they think of us as something they can wear and take off anytime they please. and when a relationship ends, people are bound to blame the guys. i might sound like i'm anti-female but honestly i'm not. it's just that recently i heard a lot of stories which is so similar to the situation i mentioned. it even happened to me dammit! and someone told me today that he feels that some girls are extremely friendly when they are single and available (they send u cards, they sms and call and they remember your birthdays) but when they are with someone, you are totally invisible to them. what gives?

came back from genting 2 days ago feeling tired because i didn't have enough sleep during my stay there. maximizing my time there..hehe. didn't really play all the things there because i lost my enthusiasm. just simply play some light ones and watched a movie. went into the casino alone one night because nobody wanted to go with me. it was not so special for me anymore because i worked in there a few years ago and it's still the same as it is when i left.

yesterday i suddenly got the urge to work part time and i found a job for 3 days. the reason for working is to spend my time earning a little bit of cash and also preventing myself from thinking something stupid. i hesitated a little bit before deciding to give it a shot. at first i thought the job was to sell digicam because they have some sort of fair going on in mahkota parade. but the manager told me that he needs to train me in order for me to sell digicam but since there isn't enough time, he'll assign a special job for me : distributing balloons. he told that i was supposed to be in charge of the atmosphere. so today i started working and the hardest part was tying up the balloons! i don't know how i cut my finger. but at the end of the day i had sore fingers from tying all those balloons. today wasn't such a bad day because there's wasn't such a big crowd. i'm expecting a very big crowd tomorrow because it's saturday! i hope i can get some help tying those balloons. anyway, it's kind of nice looking at those kids smiling happily after i give them a balloon. and i get to know some new female friends too..hehehe..

i've decided to remove wiyang from blogging at this site after some discussion. we think that it's better for us to each have our own blogs so i will not be so confusing to read, although only a handful of people know about my blog anyways. this is just a place for me to write some useless thoughts.

went out with wiyang and edmund yesterday to buy a present for our ex-classmate, seok ching. she is hosting a party tonight although her birthday is on the 9th of september. i hate buying presents because i always don't know what to buy, be it for a guy or a girl. luckily i saw kwee ying and siow fei at mahkota parade and i took the opportunity to ask for suggestions. she gave me an idea of what to buy and being lazy persons to think any further, we stuck to the idea. within minutes, we managed to buy a present which we think is suitable enough and doesn't cost us a bomb. since we have nothing else to do and wiyang was waiting for his digital photos to be developed and also wanted to buy some clothes to bring back to germany, we walked around aimlessly. we saw many ex-schoolmates and also lots of MMU students. the most surprising is to see a senior who had just finished his law studies in UK. he will start working in a law firm soon in KL. it reminds us that it will be our turn to venture into the job market soon. *sigh*

i'll be going to the birthday party later tonight. a 21st birthday party. wiyang is partly reluctant to go because he thinks that he won't know most of the people she invited. i'm curious to know who will attend and to see how they've changed and all. most important of all is to see their partners, if they have any. i'll make sure that my digicam is in full charge. hehe...

aaah...at last. finished my final exams. i'm sure i didn't do well in this exam. after all that's been going on during the past 3 weeks. it's like going to hell and back again. my database resit is yesterday and i'm glad that i managed to spot one of the question. i did slightly better than the 1st time, although i only use a few hours of studying. and now for the holidays. other than going to genting on the 1st of september to the 3rd, i have no other plans for the remaining holidays. i just don't feel like going anywhere. i somehow lost my enthusiasm for everything. maybe i'll just stay at home to rot. or maybe spend time with wiyang since he's leaving Malaysia soon. or just borrow tons of animes and watch till my eyes bleed...

finally calmed down after 2 days of extreme depression. finally i'm able to eat normally again. finally i'm able to understand the phrase "makan tak lalu, tidur tak lelap, mandi tak basah" (which reminds me of a funny thing, my friend actually add another phrase of his own when our BM teacher mentioned this during form 3 - berak tak keluar.) i've never thought i would be in that situation before. i've never thought that being hurt would cause such a big impact to a person. there's just something in your stomach that no matter how you force yourself to eat, you can never eat a full meal. it's really a struggle. and no matter how tired you are, you can never seem to sleep. it was torture!

during these few days, i was able to see the real faces of some people who i call friends. suddenly some of them became so concerned whether i'm ok or not, to which i replied "no". and then there's this overused phrase of "don't think too much lah...". but then again, there are some who managed to cheer me up a little. they did nothing but lend me an ear and some words of encouragement. there's nothing in the world which can console me at that moment so there's really no point trying. i felt much better knowing there's someone who understand my situation, who supported my actions and decisions, who felt that i was being treated unfairly, who felt that i have every right and reason to be depressed, angry, disappointed and hurt.

i guess that is part and parcel of life. i just need a lot of time to recover. shit happens.

wow..bad news after bad news. i can't believe it. when is it going to end? oklar i'm tortured enough already. i even have a sore knuckle for punching the wall after hearing about the bad news. so what's the bad news? i'm not going to say it here because if i were to post it as-a-matter-of-factly, a lot of people is going to get hurt. there's already one so deeply hurt that only time's going to tell when he's going to heal completely. so i'll just control my fingers ..

somehow after yesterday i felt like my life is a endless loop process. it happened before, and it will happen again. it just did yesterday. and i had the whole night until now (i didn't sleep at all, maybe a 20 minutes nap, i don't remember) to think of what happened.

anyway, managed to get a chunk of my problems out and threw it out of the window. so i don't even want to remember about it now. a new day has begun!

this is just great. just after i post my last blog where i said i could relax for a while, comes the news that i have to re-sit for one of my papers because apparently someone complained about others getting tips (note : EXACTLY the same question) for the final exams. well, there's this lecturer (i don't know who yet) happened to give his students a surprise quiz in class. and some of the students say it is some kind of tips for the final exam. so they start photocopying the questions and answers to their friends. i got a look at it, but i didn't believe it so i didn't get a copy. and the rest is history. i kind of expected this would happen. because some people would feel unfair for not getting the tips. and some people studied hard for it. honestly, the questions are quite tough. now the Student Representative Council are negotiating with Exam Unit. i'm not sure what objective they're trying to achieve, scrap the re-examination, perhaps? anyway, now some of them are telling me that there's a protest going on next monday. hmm.. i wonder whether this will make it into local newspaper.

finally found some time to blog again. my finals is not over yet, but 4 of the 5 papers i'm taking this sem is over. and those 4 papers are the hardest. so, i'm feeling a bit relaxed right now. heck, i can even catch a movie after the 2nd last paper. the movie was bad boys 2. it was nice..full of explosions, gunfires, typical jerry bruckheimer productions. there's also a lot of swearing and F word dialogue which was coveniently censored off. now that spoiled my viewing!

yesterday watched the amazing race 4 finale on axn, astro. i wonder why but everytime i root for a team to win, that team will never win. and the team i don't want to see winning got it. damn...i must be a bad luck charm.

Thanks to Howzan, I am now also blogging this site. And thanks to Howzan again, manage to give them a little surprise by arriving home one day earlier than expected. Thanks man. Really feel good to be back in Asia, especially the food part. Foreign food sucks, sometimes I even wonder whether they are deserved to be called food. Of course there are nice food too, but in this case, it will be unaffordable. I don't think I am going to cook anything this month. hehe... Anyway, good luck for your exam, howzan! Best of luck!

i should be studying for my finals which is due in 4 days, but i didn't. i'd rather be reading magazines/newspaper than my lecture notes. these few days was like hell for me. don't bother to ask. i might not want to talk about it. or i will bore you to death when i start to talk about it. couldn't sleep well at night. even if i do sleep, i can only successfully do so at about 5am in the morning. well, that explains why i didn't blog recently.

one week more to my final exam and i haven't studied a bit! well, not totally my fault. most of the lecturers schedule our presentations to the last minute, and we had to prepare for them. and yesterday i went through a lot of trouble just to get myself unbarred from taking exam and doing the course registration for next semester. i got barred because i didn't settle my pre-U tuition fees which is supposed to be covered by the PTPTN loan (which i haven't got). it really makes me wonder how the MMU staffs are doing things. when i first enter the university, they didn't insist me to do medical check up. they just say it half-heartedly so i thought no need-lah. after one year at the university, they want it or else i won't be offered the stupid loan for pre-U (alpha) that they came up with after PTPTN changed their policy to not allow pre-U students to get a PTPTN loan. they told me i don't have to do a xray but the doctor insisted to avoid any future complications that might arise. so i had to get my ass to the hospital to xray my chest, wait for the xray to be processed and go back to campus to see the doctor. and then i had to fill another form (guarantor form, to make sure i can pay my tuition fees)in which i had to drive a short journey to meet up with my dad at a certain primary school and get him to sign the form. the thing is, there has to be a witness the witness must be a headmaster or a grade A officer from the civil service. luckily my dad was with a few other headmasters and it's just a matter of time before it was completed and i have to drive back to the campus for the third time to hand in the stupid forms. and then i have to queue up to show one finance officer the offer letter of the loan to get myself unbarred. and they call this a MULTIMEDIA UNIVERSITY where computers were supposed to speed things up and make our lives easier. *grunts*

here's an email i found while cleaning my mailbox. quite funny to me, but you must understand Hokkien to be able to enjoy it:

Test your Hokkien skills.:)
GCE 'O' levels Hokkien Exam

Testing of your Hokkien skills!! Just got this from
my Ah Beng and Ah Lian friends in Southpoint and I can't stop laughing.

Intructions
1.Read the passage carefully
2.Grade yourself with the grading system at the end of the passage after reading
3.Not that difficult, chin chai do lah

Section A: Orrler Exeminetion (60 marks)
Singalella why become rich

Koo zhar we chee ay char bor kia, Singalella. She
got two sisters, but the stepmarder hor, and the sisters hor, all damn
kuai-lan, so she quite zhia-lat oso. Last time Singalella got own maid,
but now she become the amah. Everyday must cook lah, clean lah, rub lah, massage lah, blow also simi sai mah pao-kah-liao. If her sisters say liak kar zhuak, she liak.

Tak jit zho kah tau-hin. CPF poon boh. Then no new shares oso No money to contribute S$50 ... cannot go out to bank also. But then, kay piak eh ah-pek got one son call Ah Ming got party. So he say, "oeh, long chong kee ah." Singalella very happy because she never go party before but then her marder say, 'lee mana eh-sai kee, this one bahru your sisters wu standard.

Then Singalella must zho sui-sui for her sisters and marder. Tap pai how, buay koon and buay pang-sai. That night she only can wave bye bye and then she go back to the kitchen and cook Maggimee. Her neighbour came over and ask, 'Eh, an-zhua boh kee party?' So Singalella kong, 'I-wan, lau bu kong buay-sai, so boh pian.' She never expect but her neighbour say,' Aiyah, kee lah, I give you money.' So Singalella brush teef and zhang-zhui, chen-kor, after that look very different. She quickly run to opposite of the beh-chia-lor, already 11 o'clock at night olredi. At the party, Ah Ming also quite shien because the char bor all buay sui one. Dance floor even got one Ah Pek dancing. Just as Ah Ming told himself, 'Aiyah see-pay zhia-lat' Singalella came in.

Ah Ming straight away lau nuar. 'Wah-lau eh, see-pay heng ah, chee kor buay pai.' Ah Ming say to Singalella, 'eh, sui eh, wah ai kah lee zho flen!'

Singalella say Ok but Ah Ming like octopus, touch here touch there, but then just it was 12 o'clock one Ah Pek die on the dance floor. He become ghost and tell Singalella all the good 4D number. So after that, Singalella quickly go and buy 4D, and then tiok tau-pio, zhit-pak ban. So she pay back the kay-piak eh lau-kay-poh and then kah kee cho sen-lee. Simi kuan eh sen-lee wah mana eh zhai.

GRADES: Gauge Your Command of Hokkien

A1. Can understand the story and pronounce Hokkien
correctly: Hokkien eh sai, bo beh zhao.

A2. Can understand half story and/ or cannot
pronounce Hokkien properly-zhia lat

E8. Don't understand story and/ or catch no ball?
leow leow, mai ka lang kong you is Hokkien Singabolean

F9. Don't understand rating - kee see lah, wah mana
leh zhai lee kong simi?
Ah see lee bah lu gia A2, mian kee gia ritten
exemanation.

i'm so so angry now! my technical communications project presentation sucks BIG TIME! so angry at my group members. they don't seem to care about the marks. i wouldn't care less if it is individually assessed, but it was a group assessment damn it! i already asked them to do a rehearsal before the actual presentation, but NO they don't want to and they got angry at me for being so fussy. and now see what happened? they got all their facts wrong. and the way the present is also wrong. and we even messed up the whole sequence. one word : SCREWED.

i'm still experimenting with the colours and layout of this blog, and this is the best i can do so far. come on-lah, i forgot about html years ago wei!

ok i waited quite long to brag about this, but many people praised my cheese cake! although it was a bit..erm..not-so-perfect (ONLY the base) but the taste is still nice! actually, nothing much really to brag about since the cheese cake is very easy to make and there's no baking involved whatsoever. many people who ate my cheese cake wanted to learn how to make it too. mostly as a tool to impress the chicks. i know because i have that idea in my mind too.

i met a primary school teacher today. he's retired. how do i know him? actually he was teaching at the primary school which is adjacent to my primary school, sort of like a 2-in-1 school. i was in SK Tengkera 2 whereas he taught at SK Tengkera 1. he was a nice teacher and i happened to know his son too during secondary school. what makes him special to me is that when i was standard 1 or 2, i had a dream that i was fetched home by someone. that dream doesn't have a beginning or an ending, just something like a short movie to me. and then one day, my school bus went missing, and i was stranded at school with 2 other friends. so this teacher saw us and was wondering why we were still at school after so long. after telling him our story, he was kind enough to give us a ride home, but he had to stop at his house first. during the stop, a feeling of deja vu hit me. i actually dreamed about that moment! weird, huh? some people say it's good (dream about winning the lottery?), but when you're having nightmares...

i had my computer programming lab test in the evening. i was scared at first because i haven't really studied. but when i got hold of the question paper i was relieved. i know how to do that question! i felt weird when i was able to finish early but what the heck, i called the tutor to check. he was smiling..and then he said i was supposed to use arrays in my program. actually i kind of know that i need to use arrays, but i just pretend that i didn't know because the question didn't specifically say so. i saw other people not using it as well. the thing is, i sucked at using arrays. however, my program works perfectly. and just to double check, i asked him twice whether he was going to deduct marks for that and he said NO. safe! yet i don't think he would give me full marks either...

i finally learned how to make a cheese cake last thursday, and i managed to make one all by myself today! so proud of myself, hehe. even my god-sis wanted to learn from me now...

damn...i'm so tired this week! sleepless night doing the stupid database project. the lecturer isn't helping at all. he told us to ask him for guidance if we are in doubt, but everytime we try to ask him, he'll just say "i've told u everything, yes?" or "everything is in the online notes." if we knew how to do it, then why the hell do we need to ask him in the first place? stupid lecturer. worse still, everytime we see him during his official consultation hours, he would shoo us away and say he has some stuff to do. grr..felt like strangling him there and then!

it's just two weeks away from my final exams, and yet it doesn't feel like it. i have so many things due next week that i couldn't even find time to start studying for my finals. computer programming project and maths assignment due on 8th and 11th respectively, computer programming lab test on 5th, technical communications project presentation on the 6th and finally database project presentation on the 8th. i just hope i don't flunk my papers..but then again...my cgpa is definitely going to be bad...

i'm a lazy blogger. although i have a lot of ideas to write in my blog, at the end of the day i'm just too lazy to write. i enjoy reading other people's blog though. mostly the people that i know of. i wonder how they managed to make such a nice template for their blog. somehow most of them look the same, with tag board and all. it's just that the color scheme or background image is different. i'm trying to make my blog look nicer, with image but first i need to find a good, reliable and free website host. with a lot of storage space! i know it's hard to find so might as well do it later. see, i'm procrastinating again.

did my database project until 2 something am last night. as a result, i skipped my 12pm class today (technically it's yesterday since it's already past 12am when i wrote this...oh well). even if i attend the class i will not be able to understand what the lecturer is talking about. anyway i did the project at my friend's rented house since his computer is the only one among our group members who can run the stupid IBM DB2 program. suddenly i felt like renting a house outside and stay with my friends. because it occured to me that they were having so much fun! a bunch of guys, all in the same house without their parents around, and all their computers linked up via a small LAN. then again, it can only happen in my dreams. i don't think my parents will like it or even if they don't mind, i believe they won't support me (as in $$) so where the hell am i going to get the moolah to pay the rent?

i want a new computer! i can't do anything else on my trusty old 550Mhz PIII other than surfing, chatting and downloading stuff. it's running out of hard disk space and i don't even have a 3d graphics to play some of the latest games. well, the reason i want a faster computer is not really just to play those latest games but rather to learn something such as editing a photo in adobe photoshop (which requires a lot of processing power), creating a flash animation and loads of other stuff. *sigh* i'll just start another dream then..

these 2 days i've been feeling down. don't ask me why. i don't know either. yesterday was clarence's 21st birthday. most of my friends are turning 21 this year so it's no big deal. anyway, a bunch of us went out and celebrated with him, but what was supposed to be a happy night turn out to be not so happy in the end. after having dinner and all the singing, candle blowing and cake cutting, we went to the beach. by the time we reach 4 out of the 6 of us switched into sad mood. then i realised that despite the happy faces, they are feeling sad because of one reason or another. even the birthday boy is feeling sad...

the beach reminds me of many memories, mostly happy ones. and the most vivid was the time i got thrown into the sea on my 20th birthday. anyway, i came to realise that being 21 isn't so great after all. yes, i got to do a lot of things such as patronising a disco legally, but deep down inside, i wished that time would flow a lot slower. i just missed the good old days. i regretted that i never try a lot of things during my teenage years. if only i could start all over again...

ok from this post onwards, to hell with the capitalization! i just felt that if i were to capitalize everytime, it would hinder my sudden burst of idea. i don't know why, but there were many instances when i feel like posting something and in the end i didn't do it. probably because i just don't know how to put my feelings/ideas/ramblings into words.

last saturday i went to the bon odori festival held at shah alam. there were 5 buses of people from my campus who travelled to attend the festival. i was told to expect a lot of japanese girls dressed in yukata, but what i see is a bunch of ah lians and ah bengs dressing up in awful looking clothes. it makes me wonder whether they know how to use a mirror or they are just colour blind. and then there was a group of **** (insert the most vulgar word in your vocabulary to describe a person) who ran around the crowd like a train. in the process they managed to bump me and almost knocked me down. i should've stick my leg out and let them fall like dominoes. damn. what a disgrace to malaysians. what would the japanese people attending the festival think about malaysians? worst still, those idiots are CHINESE. anyway, there were a couple of good looking guys and girls around. now that's a bit of a consolation. one funny thing happened on the way back though. the driver of the bus i'm in got lost because he wasn't familiar with the roads there. he had to stop to ask for directions from a motorcyclist. luckily he managed to bring us back safely to melaka. what a relief...

A lot of things happened yesterday...or was it? I don't know. It just felt like a long day for me. It rained the whole day. Felt like sleeping the whole day! Alas I had to wake up with a memory of a bad dream.*sigh*

The wonders of technology never fails to amaze me. I just knew that my friend in the US of A, Foo Ming aka American Badass was back in Melaka for a full week. I seldom got the chance to talk to him. We usually chat thru MSN Messenger, but because of time difference, a full 12 hours, means that I will most probably see him online when it's really late here. But then again, he only put his MSN online occasionally. Busy studying I guess. Anyway, I began to suspect something when he is online about the same time as me. He told me he is not coming back this summer, with the SARS scare going on. Wiyang hinted to me that he is coming back, and he got that information from Ganesh. Finally, 2 days ago, Foo Ming called me and asked me out for a drink. That is when I'm sure that he's back. He said he wanted to surprise us. Hehe...didn't work-lah. I was only half-surprised. :P

Some of my form 5 classmates and also schoolmates who went overseas to study were also back. Yap Jyh Haur aka Hou Kor, Danny Lim Gin Foo and soon Wiyang will be back too. Not too sure about Chen Min though. Talking, or rather typing about form 5 classmates, I saw Suet Li and Ming Fong while I was shopping for a present at Jusco. They didn't change much. Still the same old look. I realised that we didn't have much to talk about with each other. Probably because I was never close to them in my form 5 days. Heck I don't even keep their handphone numbers in my phone book because I knew I would never need them. The truth is I only keep in touch with some of them, not all. Not that I don't want to, but honestly what's the use if the only information the will reveal to you is the place they are studying now and how long before they are graduating. I've tried to share stories with them, but they just are willing to share theirs. Even funnier, they always say "Keep in touch" whenever we met, and yet when we tried to ask them out the refuse to meet us. My best friend Edmund can relate to this, because we are the receiving end of all this. We were disappointed nevertheless, but now we are adopting the "screw you" policy. Hehe...

Later in the evening I went to my alma-mater (damn I hate to step foot in there again, especially if all the teacher are there) for a campfire. It was organized by the Red Crescent Society, which I was an ex-committee and they invited me as a guest. I met a couple of old friends there, not to mention old foes too. My seniors were also there, and they reminded me of my old days in the society. They were the ones who performed a dance item together with me during campfires, be it in other schools or in our own school (Yes, I did that! Can't believe, huh? Me neither). The most surprising turn-up has to be the choreographer, Pei Pei (nick name : Ah Pek). I don't remember the last time I see her, but she's now working in Singapore. She is still as short as ever. :P Still an easy target to disturb. Hehehe... We talked about a lot of things but the most interesting is the constant criticism fired to the MC of the campfire. Can't stop myself from laughing at Yip Wai Kuen's comments. Ahh...the good old days.

After that campfire, I went to fetch my 2 pet-sisters Huwi Yin and Gek Suan and then went to Gloria Jeans Cafe along Jalan Hang Tuah to celebrate Eileen's birthday until 1 something AM. Finally realized that having a digicam (another technological marvel!) is a good thing. I can capture all the happy moments whenever I want to, such as this. How I wished it was invented 10 years ago along with CD burners so I can have all the nice memories stored in digital picture form, burned on CD. Haih...

I don't know why I suddenly have the urge to blog. I have a test coming in less than 24 hours, and here I am, typing away. Maybe because I read Wiyang's blog that I wanted to blog. Or maybe it was something that happened this evening. Anyway, this is my temporary place to blog....err...crap?

Two days ago my dad's handphone was stolen. He was eating alone and then some beggar came over to ask for money. He didn't give, and I wouldn't too. Not because I'm not sympathetic, but some of them are just pretending. There's one famous guy in Malacca who fits that description. He's able bodied and healthy, and what did he do with the money he got from begging? He smokes. (Some people said he even used the money to "play" with some prostitutes.) Anyway, back to the beggar. My dad brushed him off, and somehow he managed to steal my dad's handphone without my dad realising. I wasn't with him at that time. If I was there, that guy wouldn't stand a chance, being a paranoid person as I am. My dad didn't realise until he left the place. Naturally he went back to the place and a worker told him the beggar took it. He was nowhere to be seen. Moral of the story, keep your handphone in your pocket at all times. (unless, of course you are using it.)

I skipped my class this morning because I wasn't able to adjust my biological clock yet. For the past week I've been sleeping at 4-5am in the morning and waking up at 2-3pm. I have another class at 4pm, which I faithfully attend. I couldn't afford another miss because if so I wouldn't get a full 10% for my Maths subject. Talk about kiasuism. So there I was...sitting there..daydreaming when the time is up. I lifted my butt to leave when I noticed that somebody left his handphone on one of the chairs. Well, another girl saw it too, and I ask her whether she remembered who sat there. She doesn't and I volunteered to wait for the person to return. She gave me the I-don't-trust-you look before leaving. Oh well, I looked evil. *sigh* Soon everybody was gone and the person was nowhere to be seen. Feeling stupid I left the room and walked to my car. I didn't switch off the phone because I expect the guy to call to get his handphone back. Then it struck me. My dad just lost a handphone, and now I picked-up one out of nowhere. Coincidence? Maybe, but I was soooooo tempted to switch it off so that the guy wouldn't be able to get it back. The problem is .... the girl saw that I took it. But then again I can lie about it. I was fighting with my conscience when the phone rang.....erm....vibrated. I answered it and I can sense that the guy is nervous. By this time I've decided to return to him instead of keeping it. After all, I got mad at the person who stole my dad's handphone, so he would've feel the same. He just told me, "I just want to tell you that...that is my phone." I felt funny at first. I wanted to answer him, "It WAS" and hang up. Hehe...evil me. So I asked him where he was and he was so nervous that he couldn't answer me properly. He was practically mumbling! Well, I met him and asked him to describe the phone so I'm sure I'm returning it to the owner. Ah...he was so thankful. The look on his face was so...I don't know how to describe. And I'm glad that i returned it. But I wondered how many people would actually do that? Actually it should be "How many MALAYSIANS would actually do that?". I'm so proud of myself. *wink*

just created this blog cos i've been reading lots of other blogs and it sounds kinda fun. so here i am with my first ...BLAH.