these 2 days i've been feeling down. don't ask me why. i don't know either. yesterday was clarence's 21st birthday. most of my friends are turning 21 this year so it's no big deal. anyway, a bunch of us went out and celebrated with him, but what was supposed to be a happy night turn out to be not so happy in the end. after having dinner and all the singing, candle blowing and cake cutting, we went to the beach. by the time we reach 4 out of the 6 of us switched into sad mood. then i realised that despite the happy faces, they are feeling sad because of one reason or another. even the birthday boy is feeling sad...

the beach reminds me of many memories, mostly happy ones. and the most vivid was the time i got thrown into the sea on my 20th birthday. anyway, i came to realise that being 21 isn't so great after all. yes, i got to do a lot of things such as patronising a disco legally, but deep down inside, i wished that time would flow a lot slower. i just missed the good old days. i regretted that i never try a lot of things during my teenage years. if only i could start all over again...