wow..bad news after bad news. i can't believe it. when is it going to end? oklar i'm tortured enough already. i even have a sore knuckle for punching the wall after hearing about the bad news. so what's the bad news? i'm not going to say it here because if i were to post it as-a-matter-of-factly, a lot of people is going to get hurt. there's already one so deeply hurt that only time's going to tell when he's going to heal completely. so i'll just control my fingers ..

somehow after yesterday i felt like my life is a endless loop process. it happened before, and it will happen again. it just did yesterday. and i had the whole night until now (i didn't sleep at all, maybe a 20 minutes nap, i don't remember) to think of what happened.

anyway, managed to get a chunk of my problems out and threw it out of the window. so i don't even want to remember about it now. a new day has begun!