wiyang screwed me for spoiling his enthusiasm to watch matrix : revolutions. ok, i admit. it's my fault. i just couldn't help it. but just so you know, that was my initial reaction. after some reading and some deep thinking, i realise there were many subtle explanations for the ending. it was an open ended ending after all.

sometimes i felt that having too many friends and aquaintances has its disadvantages. at times, i really don't know how to act when i'm out with a group of friends and i keep bumping into other friends. you know, when you see other friends of course you will talk to them a bit. this might annoy if it happens too often. another problem is, sometimes 2 or 3 group of friends ask me out at the same time or ask me to watch the same movie. i'm very bad at tackling these kind of situations. i just don't have the heart to reject but yet i am unable to attend to them all. i might even unknowingly hurt their feelings by rejecting. worst still, they might not even want to ask me the next time they go out because they assume that i don't have time for them. perhaps this is why some of my friends refused to invite me out when i so wanted to meet them and so free. it hurts when i find out later that they were having a good time whereas i am staying at home. oh well, guess i'll just have to live with it.

yesterday was wee how's birthday and we went to kfc at jusco to celebrate. after that, we went to yamcha at cahaya dinar. i was touched by siew eng's story about her family. she came from a broken family...sort of. her mother died when she was just 10 years old and her father just left her and her siblings to take care of themselves. she told us that whenever she fights with her siblings, it was almost always life threatening. she told us that she was physically hurt a few times, and she even tried committing suicide. yet, she managed to study quite well and made it into university. now that she's older, she began to appreciate the people beside her. her story undoubtly made us realise that we are so lucky compared to many other people. it's just that we didn't know. i felt a little bit guilty for having such a bad first impression of her. the yamcha continued until 3am. and i reached home at 5.30am because i need to discuss with kea loon, wee how and zhenjian about our timetable for the next trimester and also our programming assignment which is due on 11/11/2003...

and to answer wiyang's question at his blog :

i don't have time to meet edmund because i'm busy at that time. i have time to know the girls because i'm busy spending time with them to do our recycling exhibition. furthermore, we attend the same class sometimes and it's just natural that we meet more often in campus... so, don't lah jealous, ok? i'll introduce them to you if i have the chance...hehe...